It is so ironic that almost all the doctors I saw in Pakistan knew that I was mentally healthy but suggested huge doses of antipsychotics. I would be normal in almost all respects other than that I would refuse to have tainted food and water. I would have to try hard to find good water and everyone around would start blaming my mental health for that. Everyone would say that we have the same food and water that you have but nothing happens to us. The very people who mixed drugs in food and water would call my claims conspiracy theories.
What is most interesting that I had just one doctor who refused to bulldoze me with antipsychotics and that doctor had practiced all his life in United States and had come to Pakistan a few months prior to when I went to him for advice. While all famous Pakistani doctors were willing to abuse me and had no qualms about giving me huge antipsychotics when asked to do so by influential people, the doctor who had worked all his life in US never tried to force me and I was successful to convince him that I was not mentally sick. The American doctor would discuss everything with me and my family and then would decide my small dose but most of the other doctors never discussed anything with me and would simply write the prescription of high antipsychotics and I would have to suffer.
There was one doctor who forced so high antipsychotics for me that I would sleep for more than thirteen hours and when I would wake up, I would feel as if I had not slept at all and I would feel like sleeping again.
There would be other years when on some nights I could not sleep at all and I would just lie in my bed motionless without any sleep for the whole night. I have had all different kinds of shocks to my brain forced due to all different kinds of antipsychotics.
Last year, one famous doctor advised me some antipsychotics and when I told him that the drug had been given to me more than fifteen years ago and it caused severe jaundice, he responded by saying that it might not cause jaundice every time. I had jaundice again after a few weeks and it took me more than four months to recover. The drug was stopped but I was still forced to take some other antipsychotics. I am glad that my family decided to not continue with that doctor though the new doctor is not much better.
I am the most gentle person you could ever come across and I rarely have a fight with anyone and I do not remember having fought anyone in recent past over several years. Even in my wildest dreams, I never thought of hurting anyone or myself.
Past twenty years have been like a very bad dream and a nightmare and I do not want to keep seeing the same forced antipsychotics all through my life.
It is not possible for people who are not given antipsychotics to know what extreme circumstances people have to pass through when they are forced on such drugs and high antipsychotics for healthy people is one of the most cruel things you can do to someone.
I would request all good Americans to please stop these mind control agencies from forcing antipsychotics on healthy people. Abusing intelligent people and forcing antipsychotics to hurt their brains is one of the least human thing you want to do to other good natured people. I would like to say again that if you could help me in my freedom, I would not let you down as a good American and as a good human being. I would live all my remaining life in a way that you would know that you made the right decision to help me in my freedom. I would always try to be a good human and try to be a very good friends with Americans and work for their rightful interests whenever I can.