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May 9th, 2018, 8:23 pm

Ok, there is another very interesting thing I forgot. When I was being persecuted in Tehran, I walked into Vatican embassy in Tehran and asked them to protect me in the name of humanity. They were very nice but they politely told me that they could not help me in any way. I also went to Canadian embassy and they told me that they would consider helping me but then I had already left in eight days.
 
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May 11th, 2018, 9:25 pm

Today was a reasonably good day. I got up late and missed my Friday prayers. I had continued to work quite late yesterday night. After waking up, I had some food and then taught statistics to my nephew. Yesterday he was being very dejected and he would tell me that he could never solve possibly many of the stat questions and they were too difficult but today he was able to learn some more and I was happy since he was more upbeat and actually solved several questions right. After teaching my nephew, I went out on car and came back after around two hours. And then I did work on my research. I had earlier written a matlab program but it had limited capability and then I changed my mathematica code and played around with it and then made some posts on technical forum after correcting the old error and writing new formulas. I have some very good ideas about writing a simulation program that could give evolution of almost any reasonable SDE with analytics but I know I have to work quite a bit more to be able to complete everything. I continued to do some work and would be sleeping in a bit.
In a previous post, I told friends about going to Iran. In fact when I went to Japan in 2004, I was very excited that I would work very hard and advance my career and I was not worried that brain control would ever follow me in Japan. I would think that Japan was the safest and most peaceful country in the world. It was the same when I went to UK in 2010. I still recall that I was so desperately looking forward to leaving for UK that I ate very little for three last days before coming to UK. I had a very special image of UK people and I would think that they were extremely civilized people and nobody could ever dare target me or give me drugs in my food once I am living in UK. But of course, I was just thinking in fool's paradise. When I was in UK, I bitterly tried to go to some third country. A contact in China wanted to start a high performance computing firm targeting finance and he wanted me to work for him in China and did all the required official work for me to get Chinese visa. The visa agency first asked me for extra documents several times and when all documents were complete, they told me that they wanted me to apply for visa in Pakistan although I was legally in UK with a work visa and their website mentioned that Pakistanis on UK work visa could apply for Chinese visa from London. Of course some influential people in UK wanted my persecution to continue and Chinese diplomatic staff had far more regard for their British hosts and had no special sympathies with me. 
 
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May 12th, 2018, 2:42 pm

I was thinking about this and decided to write about this earlier. As I have already mentioned in my blog, I believe all these mind control agents are known to ethical justification techniques so as to convince everyone that brain control of some target is a very good idea. And they continue to hone these techniques and continue to practice within their group to see how to effectively give ethical justification of mind control to a lot of ordinary people because you simply cannot bribe everyone and many people would never accept bribes. And they also teach corrupt people how to effectively give justifications to ordinary people so as to tell them that brain control is a very valid thing. And corrupt people absolutely love it when they make millions of dollars in bribes and other good people acknowledge that these corrupt agents or other officials are doing a very good thing. Though I am sure I am speaking an exact truth, I would request people to not blindly believe me and find out on their own whether I am speaking the truth. And It would be nice for good people to have an alternative hypothesis when they are told ethical justification of brain control by people who are in fact manipulating them. Many of us are prone to believing a lot of such ethical justification lies when they are approached by corrupt people who masquerade as very good and nice people. And it would be good for many such good people to know that there is a possibility that this person is telling me a complete lie but he knows how to appeal to my goodness(basically manipulation) to convince me that he is asking me for a very good and right thing. Of course, everyone has to make their own judgement but I am sure a lot of this manipulation would end when everybody knows the truth.  
 
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May 13th, 2018, 6:23 pm

I wanted to write my routine post yesterday night but when I had food at home at ten in the night, I could not do any work because of extreme drugs in the food and had to sleep and therefore I missed my daily journal yesterday. 
Early yesterday morning my sister had left for Lahore and when I woke up at around eleven, I decided to go out. I drove on Kashmir highway and then went to Peshwar road. And many things I had taken to eat were not good. I know people will find it hard to believe but they continue to drug the beverages on shelves freely and it has become a routine matter for most shop owners to quietly accept it as a norm when army agencies drug the food. When I started to drive everyday on Peshawar road towards Taxila, most beverages that I like were good but in a little more than one week, it becomes harder to get good drinks I like. I did not go too far on Peshawar road and came back after a little bit. I then worked on my programs and thought about other ideas I had about continuing my research. It was becoming a bit difficult since I had taken in quite a lot of drugged food.  I went out again on my car after four in the evening and I went towards Islamabad expressway. I also bough coffee from Sector I on the side of Islamabad expressway but the coffee was also bad. I strongly believe they contaminated the coffee when I reached the market. I later went again towards GT Raod and bought some water and energy drinks. Water was not good and I dropped the water and refilled the bottles from another source of ground water on the way. When I came back, I tried to do some work but it was becoming difficult to concentrate with drugs. I ate some food from the kitchen at home and then I had to end everything and go to sleep at around ten.
I strongly felt that brain control agents were making greater effort to control me and they had also started to use more potent drugs at home. I mention here everyday that I do eat at home almost everyday and mostly it puts me slightly off but I still do not make a very big deal about it. But now they have started using different stronger drugs and I basically just collapsed last night right after I had taken food from the kitchen. Even today brain control agents seemed far more serious from their tone and I am afraid they would resort to all sort of ugly tactics to somehow give me special drugs or use people around to start a new round of hospitalization, high potency anti-psychotics and drugging to somehow control me well for another few months or a year. This has been the same cycle every year that when I feel a little better, they ask my family to detain me with a psychiatrist and then I am given all sort of injections and potent drugs and then when I cannot do anything meaningful, they become a little better in letting me have good drinks or reasonably good food and when after a few months I restart meaningful intellectual activity, they start drugging the food at home and in the markets and start cornering me again. My greatest concern everyday is how to be able to get good water that I could keep myself sane. And it continues to become harder everyday to get good food or water. I will request all good Americans and other people across the world that I just want to be allowed to live a good happy life with my own neurotransmitters. All my life I have not done anything to willfully harm anyone. And if the mind control agencies are so right, please tell people how I would ever possibly wrong anyone. By working hard on my research and trying to do good mathematics? I continued to get persecuted for past twenty years and I never did anything wrong to willfully hurt any human being. And my concern even now is to be able to save myself from future humiliation, torture and suffering. Despite that I was cruelly wronged, I do not have the slightest desire to harm anyone in return and I wish a good life to even those people who were behind my persecution but still I do not want to be cruelly tortured for the rest of my life. All I request people is to let me live a good happy life and I am sure my research is not the least threat to anyone even though I would love to continue my attempts to contribute. I would request all good Americans and others to please do something if you could to please let me have my life with freedom. And again in my mind, I do not have any slightest wrong desire to hurt anyone, and I am sure even after my freedom, I would be reasonably monitored and even if I try to do anything wrong I would never be able to do that. And then why would they want to continue cruel brain control forever? I am sure everything I do on my computer and what I blurt alone and other so many thoroughly private things are shared with at least more than a dozen humans and I am sure some of them would be from my own country. I give this challenge to mind control people. Please tell people one web site I ever opened all my life with the intention of hurting any American/or any other human or anything that could be associated with hateful activity or something that can ever be linked to any remotely potentially wrong activity. I am thoroughly confident they could not name any such single website and say anything against me since I have no interest in anything like that. I lived in Britain for six months and my challenge stands for British intelligence if they can just cite one such website that could even be remotely associated with potentially wrong or hateful activity, I would be willing to be retarded for the rest of my life. And I believe that it is my right to ask and be allowed to live a good happy life without torture.
Ok whatever. Today I woke up earlier since I had slept yesterday around ten and I was awake at eight. It was weekend and I decided to go out. I was feeling very bad due to contaminated food from yesterday and ate at a street restaurant. I believe that I took a lot of secret service agents off guard since usually I leave home after one or two in the afternoon but today I left at 8:30 in the morning on a Sunday. And I like having some good food. I was far more careful after bad yesterday to try to get good food. I also wrote some posts on technical forum. I did some other work and then I left again in the evening around 4:00 and luckily I was able to get good water. I also tried to get good coffee today. I never try Nestle Coffee but it was imported form some foreign country and I had not seen that particular Nestle brand before but the coffee was again not good. I came home and then tried to do some work.  But I decided to write my journal earlier for the fear of missing it again.
 
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May 14th, 2018, 10:41 pm

After waking up at around twelve, I went out and had some food. I also visited my bank. And wasted more than one hour outside.I then came back home and tried to do some work. Something in the food I had was not good so I lied for around one hour on bed.
My sister was also worried about my nephew that he should study enough and could easily pass the exams. And I decided to make simple notes explaining a lot of things systematically so he could easily understand things and later review the notes when he would have a few days before the paper. I also took a small twenty minutes mathematics test for my niece. I wasted some more time at home and then I went out around seven thirty at night. I was able to get some good water from a random place on Islamabad expressway. I had also bought coffee on the way from a pharmacy at G-11 and I was feeling confident that it would be good since I was not particularly thinking about buying coffee and just picked it when I saw it. But when I returned home, I realized that coffee was not good at all. This is a market close to my sister's home and I often go there so they must have taken care of it. They are very very careful about drugging coffee at various places and whenever I am very down due to brain control and take coffee, it strongly lifts me and I feel much better. So finding good coffee when they are trying hard to control has always been a very difficult thing for more than even past ten years. This is one of the things they have to drug to keep their mind control working. 
After returning from outside, I spent some time on my research and then later made simple statistics notes for my nephew which took me about two hours. And I would be sleeping in a little bit now. 
 
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May 16th, 2018, 9:44 pm

I got up at around twelve today and I had food at home. I had good water from yesterday and I continued to use/drink it. I started thinking about new algorithm for Ito-Taylor expansions. I could find the coefficients for various time easily but integrals go backward in time so everything had to be carefully calculated with some efficient algorithm. I believed there were a lot of symmetries in the coefficients of lognormal SDE so reverse order would not spoil the results though I am sure the results were fine since integrals had right values and reverse order had nothing to do with integrals commuting as I had earlier wrongly assumed. I had earlier noticed that time integral of squared lognormal would be slightly off at high volatilities as compared to monte carlo and only now I realized that the reason was that leading dt term would spoil the symmetry and results were slightly off even though squared lognormal would be exact. At that time I thought that may be monte carlo was probably slightly off at very high volatility. I had various ideas about new algorithm design and I continued to try to put them together. And around 6:30, I left out on my car and got some good water from a decently far off place after two unsuccessful attempts to get good water. I was back home at eight fifteen. And then I wasted some time and taught some mathematics to my niece who has a math exam tomorrow. I thought more about the algorithm and then tried to write the algorithm more concretely on paper and played around it. 
One good thing was that yesterday I was able to get good coffee and it gave me a good boost. When my brain would be very down and dull due to brain control and my consciousness would be highly decreased, it really helps to take coffee or some other stimulants like energy drinks and they are a great boost towards gaining some clarity. I still recall from early last year when I was on very little drugs that I would not care about stimulants and would rarely take energy drinks and still I would feel fine and would remain mentally alert.
I felt that brain control agents were slightly being more desperate but I did not give them a great opportunity to make things worse for me since I was able to get good water and I also had good coffee. But I would strongly fear that things could possibly turn worse again when I would not have good water some other day. I would be sleeping in a little bit.
Oh I forgot. Ramadan has started from tomorrow but I would not be fasting. But I would have to be careful about eating outside during the day. 
 
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May 17th, 2018, 1:18 am

I hate to write about this but for past three or four days, they have been using high frequency waves and other tactics to charge the back and related openings. Especially when I sleep on bed, it becomes extreme torture and I have very strong itch in my back. Even now I woke up from extreme pain in the back and decided to write about it. As I had told people earlier, I believe that ionized chemicals go into the back and into the body and it is just unexplainable torture for past four or five days and every day they ramp up the torture somewhat when I do not speak about it. I keep begging them to stop it but to no avail and now when I woke up I decided to write about it at the same time.
 
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May 17th, 2018, 8:34 pm

I made above post at around six in the morning when I woke up with pain in middle of my sleep due to unbearable pain. I had continued to beg mind control agents to not torture me like that but they never cared so as a matter of last resort I decided to write a post when I woke up from pain since nothing else was working. After writing the post, I slept on the floor. I used to sleep on the floor before last year in Lahore when I had to sleep inside my room because of similar problems with sleeping on the bed. And sleeping on the floor was always far better and I just wanted a good sleep. But since I came to Islamabad last year, I have been sleeping on the bed and many times it is very painful but I did not want to take the more extreme step of sleeping on the floor and just continued sleeping on bed despite problems. But it became extremely painful last night and I just decided that I would sleep on the floor.
And I want to tell friends that for more than six years I continued to sleep in the open on a cot in the balcony on the first floor since sleeping on the large bed inside my room was a torture and they would use gases that would make me extremely sick and I just decided to sleep in the open and nobody at home cared very much other than insisting whatever I do, I must have antipsychotics.
I still recall that on several nights, I would not be able to sleep because of medication and mind control drugs and I would simply lie on the cot in the balcony with my eyes closed all though the night. This was not an everyday thing but I do recall there were many nights that I passed like that. And then another psychiatrist gave me some other antipsychotic drug that is known to cause extreme sleep and I would sleep for thirteen hours and still when I would wake up, I would feel tired and would want to sleep more. In those years, I never had the peace and satisfaction we get from a good sleep. And this drug was given to me for more than two years before 2010.
Over the years I have seen so many days of pain and torture in all sort of different ways and I just beg people to let me live with my human dignity and beg them to accept me as a human being. And I just want to live a happy peaceful life where I could do my research because, as I earlier told people, this is the only meaningful thing I do in my life.
And there are people especially mind control agents in Pakistan who make big money for manipulating and torturing me and they are desperate to somehow continue my persecution.
Ok, about the day, I slept on the floor again after writing the previous post at around 6:00 in the morning when I woke up from unbearable pain. And I had a good sleep on the floor after I slept again. I woke up at around eleven and then tried to do work on my research but I was not feeling very upbeat and could not focus very well. I also made some stat notes for my nephew. And after 4:30, I went out on my car and drove out to Murree road in Rawalpindi and I got some good water from there. I also got a few drinks on the way and then returned home. After coming home, I basically just wasted time and it was being difficult to focus on anything. I also taught my nephew for about half an hour after coming back from outside. I did continue to think about other mathematical ideas but did not do anything concrete and wasted a lot of time. I would be sleeping in a bit now.
 
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May 18th, 2018, 9:24 pm

I woke up at around twelve thirty today and wasted a bit of time. I went out for Friday prayers after 1:30. I did not eat at home after that and went out on my car and drove around Murree road in Rawalpindi. I took some good drinks and also got some food to eat. I also was able to get good water. I then drove from Murree road to Islamabad expressway and wasted some time in Gulberg Greens. There are some bridges there over a stream that could go for a small river and I parked my car next to a bridge and enjoyed the beautiful scenery. I stayed there for about thirty minutes. I then drove back home and all of it would probably have taken slightly less than three hours. At home I played with my algorithm design for the hermite expansion of SDEs. I also thought more about various possibilities with the algorithm and also made a post on the technical forum.
Though my day was alright, I am very afraid that mind control agents will surely try to somehow get me again in next one or two weeks. And I am sure they will use my family or psychiatrists to give me drugs or injections so that I would lose any mental clarity I currently have. And when I would have lost any clarity, the whole thing might possibly get out of any attention that people might have now and my persecution will continue.
I was also feeling today and over past day that mind control agents want to try to make me say something offensive that they could later cite as a reason to influence people that my persecution must continue. And they would make the assertion that they did not give me any drugs and the offensive thing was said by myself on my own. Though I am very well aware that I would never say anything like that on my own but I still try to be very careful since I strongly feel that mind control agents would try this trick to get me to say something under their influence so that my persecution could continue and they would continue to make tens of millions of dollars every year.
I would again request people to please be kind to me and if you could ever influence the mind control agencies, please ask them to stop my persecution and do not restart another cycle of persecution by giving me more drugs, injections and anti-psychotics using my family and psychiatrists. I know there are some good humans and good Americans who have enough sympathy for my suffering and I believe they have enough influence to ask mind control people to be better and I would always be thankful and indebted to them. Otherwise I might already have been given injections and other potent drugs to restart a new mind control cycle as has always been the case over past twenty years. But I am still afraid that mind control agents will again try their best to persuade other good people that somehow my persecution must continue and some ill luck might hit me again as ever. I will again request people to be better and kind with me. And I have absolutely no ill feelings for anyone including those people who might have motivated my persecution and I just want a happy life for myself and I have already passed the prime period and youth of my life. And at this age, it is very difficult for me to withstand any strong antipsychotics. I would again beg people to please let me live with freedom from mind control and let me be like other happy people. Ok, I will be sleeping in a bit now. 
 
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May 20th, 2018, 9:27 pm

Today I woke up too late after 2:30 pm. I have absolutely no idea why I continued to sleep so long since I do not believe that I had not taken in too much brain control drugs or anything and when I slept last night I was feeling almost alright and I slept around 3:00 in the morning. I would otherwise usually wake up around eleven or sometimes slightly later when I sleep at two am. I did have a good sleep since I slept on the floor and not on the bed. For past few days I have been sleeping on the floor and my sleep quality has markedly improved.
A little after waking up  I drove to Rawalpindi and had some good food, drinks and water. I did some work after coming back and then ate with my sister's family at Iftar. I then worked on my program for Ito-Taylor expansions. But I continued to have problems since I wanted to write an efficient program using which people would easily expand SDEs to a high order. But some architecture style was asking for too much memory and other architecture styles required extensive looping. However I did have ideas about more efficient program using parts of trees that such that smaller parts do not recombine and I would try them in next few days. It is 2:30 and I would be sleeping now.
 
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Yesterday, 9:48 pm

I woke up after 11:30 am and worked till 2:30 pm. I worked mostly on programming constructs that I needed to use in my SDEs expansion program. I then went out on my car and bought some food, drinks and water from G-10 market. The food and drinks were mostly good save a few bad drinks.  I had been going to Rawalpindi to get food and water for past few days and I knew that Pakistani intelligence would be targeting the same area. I was getting good food and water from many areas in Rawalpindi for past few days since I had not gone to those areas for about a year and Pakistani agencies had not caught up with drugging those areas. And that is one reason that I had been able to get good food and water for past few days to remain more sane. But I am sure corrupt generals would want to drug those areas to get huge bribe money and I cannot continue to get food and water for many days now. Anyway after getting home, I continued to work on the algorithm design and I think I have most of the algorithm nailed down save few minor details and if I can get good food and water for another day, I will be able to write a good program. 
I want to tell friends that I have been targeted for twenty years now. And my reason for being targeted was my talent. And some people did not like my being a muslim something I really could not change about myself. I was never extremist or anything of the sort and I had no complex or misconceptions that I follow a better religion or culture. I know I do not. And over the years I had written many ironic/satirical posts about Americans and the reason was that my persecution with mind control was totally inhuman and un-American but it still continued for twenty years despite that I continued to post about torture on me and hundreds of people read my posts but inhuman torture, cruelty and something that was so inhuman, un-American and totally opposed to American values still continued.
I would copy a few posts from this thread about to give people some idea about what I have written in old posts but I am not copying any posts about torture at the moment.

I made the post below when I was feeling a little better but only after a few months I was detained by a psychiatrist who gave all sort of injections and drugs.
Sat Dec 14, 2013 7:58 am

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Since I gave the web address of this discussion at various places, I will like to add a few words for Americans, and people of other nations.You have to read this thread only to see the human side of the problem. It is really not about myself. I am having real and good fun in whatever I do. But since I  passed through extremely cruel and inhuman experiences, I know what happens to those people who are forced to lead a life of total misery. I was able to continue to work on neurotransmitters they could not block so I have seen just enough of what happens to victims. Humanity is not about God/religions/nations, it is about empathy and compassion we have towards other humans that helps us have an understanding of what other  humans are, irrespective of any group we identify with. Since I know how normal humans think and feel and I also know what happens to victims of these mind control weapons, so I can say I might never have cared that deeply about mind control victims if I had not passed through this experience myself or somebody shared their experiences with me.Just because you allocate too much money to US military, which is not my problem and your nations's own decision, they should not be allowed to alter any human's brain and create a phony world around them. I do not want to use any degrading words here but it is insulting to victim, to those around him who are promised huge money and also to your nation. I might criticize US or not, is my own business, and you should be able to appreciate that, but I am never going to hurt feelings of any good human anywhere, save if I get to know their evil intentions.Other than that if you want to continue to use these weapons on me, I do not mind since you really cannot control me but Please, do not use them on any human being ever.

Here I have copied another post that shows my stance even now. I just want to move on with my life and try to do good research. 
Tue Feb 17, 2015 9:39 am

Amin:
I have no desire to say anything that hurts Americans or any other nation. I really do not enjoy it and myself do not like posting it despite it is total truth and inhuman torture. Instead of being angry on me, I would ask Americans and their sincere friends to become wiser and stop using NEM weapons on me. I will simply move on with my life and would want to keep posting in technical sections which I always like and probably everyone likes.


Below I made a post when I was being ironic of mind control people and their tactics. I had earlier said in a post that these people consider themselves like little gods and called them big jolly. When I look back, I know some of my posts were somewhat inappropriate and my mood changed many times when they would give me drugs and injections. But I still retained enough sanity and good humanity alive.
Sun Mar 29, 2015 4:37 am
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To decrease the temperature of many Americans, I will like to say I am also a Jolly. I just try to be a good Jolly and not a big jolly. We are all jollies. Humans are really not that big/grand/or great and I think every human should acknowledge that. Acting/thinking of oneself as grand/or great might make shallow people feel special but I think humbleness and modesty are special gifts of God to good humans(that even God does not have). If we understand, we all have a very short life and it would be better lived if we love and respect each other. I will still continue to make appropriate use of the word Jolly as long as Americans here continue to act in grand godly ways to retard people in our country.
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