I have been writing about my brain control persecution on Wilmott for more than ten years. Today I decided to write an extremely frank and candid review of my persecution spread over twenty years for wilmott friends and how it evolved. I particularly want to avoid writing about the hardships I faced since I have written about them before. I just want to write about the motivation of the persecution and the evolution of my life and circumstances over past twenty years.
I got my Bachelors electrical engineering degree from Northwestern university. I had transferred to Northwestern university as a junior after completing first two years at University of engineering and technology, Lahore. My first year at Northwestern was reasonably good and I had a GPA of 3.3. But in my last year, I lost all interest in engineering and my cumulative GPA of two years dropped to 2.5. After graduation, it was difficult for me to directly get a good job and I decided to continue my studies with a determination to work very hard in order to make up for hurting myself in undergraduate studies. I got admission in a masters in Economics program at NYU. After the first semester, I discovered that as a student of college of arts and sciences, I could take any classes in math department. I was very good at Maths throughout my educational career and it truly interested me so I took several classes in mathematics of finance. I worked extremely hard and I recall that on some weekends I would leave library only when the library would close. I would mostly be in the computer lab coding for some project. MS in Econ students did not have 24 hours access to computer lab but I fought with the administrator to say that I had paid money for my masters and I still could not have access to lab while Phd students who were on scholarship had been given off hours access to lab and administrator finally gave me 24 hours and holidays access to computer lab. I was living in Queens and had a car and I would drive to NYU campus everyday on my car. Many times, I would leave the lab at 2:00 or 3:00 am in the morning to drive back to Queens. I recall when once driving back to Queens my car got on a footpath since I was half asleep and I hardly avoided violent accident. I still recall one early morning, I was driving back from Manhattan to Queens and was closer to the bridge when I violated a red light since I was half asleep but only 200 meters ahead there was another red light where I stopped. A police car came from behind and police officer told me that I had violated a traffic signal. I told the police officer that I had been working all night at the lab and I was half asleep and if I wanted to break the signal intentionally, I would not stop at the second signal. Police officer looked at the back seat of my car where there were scattered more than 25 books that I had borrowed from the library. Police officer shook hands with me and allowed me to leave. I still recall when I would drive over the bridge between Manhattan and Queens at night, and would see the New York city lights, I would say that the city never failed to inspire me.
I was mostly alone when at NYU and I had no very close friends. I would be nice to everyone in the economics department and people also had a good image of me and they met me nicely and women in the department also liked me. Though I would also be attracted to women, I never tried to be close since I had bad memories from my undergraduate life in Northwestern where my crushes had almost spoiled my academic career and therefore I just wanted to concentrate on my studies as long as I would remain in school.
I tried to work very hard for computing in Finance assignments and the professor noticed my talent and he told mind control people about me. When mind control agencies checked my brain they told the people at NYU that I used several special parts of my brain that people normally do not use. This was told to me again and again by mind control people speaking in my brain that people were told about several very successful people in America who used some special part of their brain and I used many of those parts together. Since I lived mostly alone by myself, it was easy to develop crazy theories about me. Again I am not making this up but I was again and again told things like this that people had crazy and funky speculations that he would, in the future, become Muslim caliph due to his brain. When at NYU, I was not aware of any of these funky speculations. I was not a very devout Muslim. I never prayed even on Eids but I would fast in Ramadan and would eat Kosher only. I believed in God and Muslim faith but during my stay it all remained in some remote part of my brain since I cannot recall if I would ever be thinking of God or anything like that but of course, I was a Muslim but again it did not affect my decision making in anything other than avoiding alcohol and eating kosher. Once people knew what mind control agencies had to say, there was an overwhelming desire among some people at the university to somehow fail me and not allow me to become successful and they did that with an iron fist. Towards the end of MA degree, I wanted to continue with a PhD but things had already become too difficult. I had yet to complete my thesis when I decided to leave.
When I reached Pakistan, my family had already been taken into confidence by American agencies and they told me that my claims about American intelligence agencies were a disease and I needed to be put on psychiatric medication. I was given electric shocks by a psychiatrist at the start of my treatment. I was on so much medication that it was impossible to work. But I restarted my work and completed my thesis after three years and sent it to NYU for completion of my degree. There was a Japanese company in derivatives and they liked my thesis and research work and asked me to code derivatives models for them from Pakistan. They started by paying me 2500 USD per month at the start. All this while, I was on antipsychotic drugs since my parents were told that antipsychotics had to be given as long as some special parts of my brain would remain connected. After about two years, the Japanese company asked me to join them in their Tokyo office. It was a very small company that consisted of only two people other than me and they did derivatives valuations for institutions. When I reached Japan, I had to face the persecution with drugs in my food at restaurants. Since many powerful Americans were trying to orchestrate my persecution, and I was a total nobody and I was a Muslim on top of that, Japanese agencies had no qualms about drugging my food. After a month of torture, I resigned and left Japan and went to Iran. I thought of Iran as a country where CIA would not be able to intervene but they played Shia/sunni card and told Iranians that I was a Sunni who might become successful in Iran and gave them money to give drugs in my food. I tried to be myself and told Iranians that I had no big deal about Shia/Sunni but they would not stop. After only a week in Iran, I left and came back to Pakistan. I was put on antipsychotics again by my parents. I continued to work on financial modelling and developed many more models and told the Japanese firm from where I had earlier resigned and they offered me to restart work for them and I started working for them from Pakistan again. I continued to work for them for another six years and when I resigned in September 2018, they were giving me 8500 USD per month + 45000 USD bonus. This was a lot of money in Pakistan. I remained on antipsychotics for all this time. I tried to be free from the reign of my father and went to live in Karachi but Pakistan army arrested me and handed me over to my father in Lahore saying that I was a shizophrenic who had run away from his guardian. Several other times, I tried to leave my family but Pakistan army intervened and made sure that I live with my family and several times they would ask the psychiatrists to lift me from my home and keep me under detention on frivolous excuses.
In 2010, I applied and qualified for British Highly Skilled Migrant program and decided to live in UK. In my whole life, I was never so happier since I was under the impression that British were probably the most civilized nation on earth and they regard human rights more than any other people in the world so I would not find any more forced drugging and would live happily ever after. But some people in US had the same funky theories of my becoming a Muslim Caliph if I were allowed to become free and work hard towards a successful life. I am not making this up and many times mind control agents mentioned things like this people were saying to each other about me. Only after a few days in UK, I noticed that several beverages had started to get drugged in the stores and the situation continued to worsen everyday. I had a lot of money saved from previous years and I lived in the best hotels and traveled really a lot. On every weekend, I would go to scotland and hire a taxi for the day and roam in the mountain ranges of scotland. I had been free from antipsychotics after more than ten years and despite my persecution, I loved my freedom and really tried to enjoy. I had also rented an apartment in central London. It was impossible to find work in such an environment since I had realized that purpose of work would be to pin me somewhere so my persecution becomes very easy. After six months in UK, I became thoroughly sick of my persecution and decided to go back to Pakistan. I wanted to escape to some third country but UK authorities stopped other embassies from giving me visa. I am sure a huge amount of lies were told by British and Americans for all of this. Well while at UK,this supposed Caliph would roam around all day and watch a lot of porn at night.
After my return from UK, my family again detained my at a psychiatric facility where I remained for a whole one year. After becoming free from psychiatric facility, I started to work again in 2012 about my research on interest rate models. I was thinking that I would be able to sell these models to investment banks. But when I called up my contacts at investment banks, I realized that they were already being contacted by CIA and asked to not cooperate. I decided to give up doing business with investment banks and thought that I should do something that I can sell to more general public like option chain models or something similar. I did a lot of work on that but I was hospitalized on frivolous issues many times. I started working on HFT trading in late 2015 but Then in 2016, I hit on method of iterated integrals for ODEs and SDEs and developed them for about two years. In the meantime, mind control agencies were telling people that I was going to do something wrong insinuating me as a terrorist or extremist. On the other hand, I had continued to lose touch with my religious beliefs. I am one of those nerds who reads with great anticipation the news about remote parts of the universe or the story of some new fossil find. It is hard to believe in any religion when people start to believe that billions of years ago it was only microbes that created all the oxygen and that after the end of huge ice age, so many nutrients got washed from lands to seas that it caused cambrian explosion in life forms. At present day, I do not believe in any religion or God and agree with so many other people that we should get above these religious divides that false beliefs are causing. Instead of becoming a fanatic as a result of my persecution, I continued to become open minded since I kept my mind straight and continued to understand reason. Ok again about my being a terrorist or extremist, I have never touched a gun or a pistol in past twenty five years(I fired from gun when I completed a compulsory military training course in my high school). I have never visited or tried to visit any extremist web site ever in my whole life and you can verify since I am sure CIA has complete records of my surfing all my life. But when I cannot access other people to tell my side of the story, they become too bold in lying about me to accomplish their goals of failing me.
Even after my reasonably meaningful discoveries in the solution of ODEs and SDEs, I found that professors at several European universities were not ready to encourage me to join their universities because of what CIA told them and it was very heart breaking since just a year ago I wanted to devote myself to study and research in Mathematics. despite that I have no special background in mathematics more than just engineering and finance mathematics, I was able to do reasonably successful original research.
I have started research in HFT again and I believe that I am very close to breaking the code of successful HFT trading and would be completing this research in next few months.
But after twenty years of living with antipsychotics, I have become very mellow. I have no animosity for even those people who were behind starting my persecution and I completely forgive them but would request people to be more responsible with individuals when intelligence agencies tell them complete lies. In my case, These intelligence agencies were motivated to retard me since some extremely successful people in US were influenced by stories about parts of my brain that others do not use and the muslim caliph theories and there was a desire by intelligence agencies to please those successful people. And there was also a desire to make big money by agents in Pakistan and some of those agents have embezelled more than hundred million dollars each and they want this persecution to continue since I am a hen that lays golden eggs for them.