The normal shit that happens in your life follows some sort of frequency/shittiness distribution where bad things cluster through a dull but irritating stochastic process but of course you can be fooled by this randomness into thinking there is some mechanism out there.This is path dependent, once the mechanism appears to fit the observed facts and of course occasionally one does have some agency trying to mess with you.At that point the prior probabilities of any bad event being part of a mechanism can lead you to assume this and even look out for bad things that support the idea.It is therefore rational to check that your interpretation by checking with others (like you are doing) to se if your weighting of data points is at the right level and none of us ever at at the prceise optimum across all our weightings.At one point a popular spy series on TV had a character who looked like me who had a cover story that was pretty much how I'd describe my job and was facing a specific group of terrorists who had tried to kill me as a child and who had faded away but the plot had them come back, to get me/him.I detected that a couple of his speech patterns were also quite like mine and it amused me to speculate to my friends and family that somehow the writers had known me and based the character on my life.So I drifted into actively spotting resemblances.By reflecting this pattern off others I never drifted into believing the BBC was monitoring my life so as to make it into a TV series without paying me ...That sort of reflection is important to us all and I can see why the ananoymity of Wilmott.com is helpful to you in calibrating your weightings for some data you've observed in your life.It is possible that someone is trying to hack you for some grudge of just because they get thier kicks that way, there exists tech that can get past your precautions, though changing your passwords is a good idea. Please tell me you have different passwords for different systems ?Butr online we can't calibrate as well as you'd like, which is why Rmax suggested a doctor and you need to embrace your scientific education and viewpoint here.You may or may not be ill, but now the idea is now in your head that you may be unwell and that itself will cause you extra stress which you don't need right now.If you had a cough that lasted more than a couple of weeks and just wouldn't seem to go, you'd see a doctor.It very probably would not be cancer, but the risk * outcome of cancer is harsh enough that the advice from health professionals is that a couple of weeks of cooughing, even if not really that severe should be checked out, to be sure and frankly to take away the nagging fear that it might be something deeply bad.Your brain is a bunch of stuff just like lungs, pancreas etc or the Windows setup on your PC, if your PC kept giving troubling results, you'd call tech support.I'm very good with computers but recently paid someone else to handle a job with a very fiddly wire in a laptop, I joked that this was emabarassing which is how too many people feel about stress and other issues to do with the organ at the top of their body that they'd never feel if the organ that was giving trouble was intheir ribcage.So you need to see a doctor, the odds are that you need to get a bit more sleep, take a holiday or (as happeend to a friend of mine) stop eating cheese which his body couldn't handle properly or some other food.Many people in this line of work get too little sleep, a common evolution is being young and able to cut down without much effect to "get more done" can as you get older become something your body will not handle as well, or the excess coffee that accompanies banking can be an issue.So the vast bulk of the proababiliy mass is talking it though, maybe tweaking your lifestyle a bit by discplining your habits into treating your body better.Of course it may be something more and just as your PC may have some serious hacking shit on it, an issue with your head needs to be looked at by a professional.You should do both because basically they are the same thing. An hour of a decent tech and 20 minutes with a doctor is an investment with such huge upside that you'd be a fool to pass it by.
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