July 2nd, 2009, 8:18 am
QuoteOriginally posted by: AbhiJAs long as what your intentions are good it doesn't matter what is the end result.I think that's bull crap. I don't believe that claiming good intentions will save me from damnation.If I was alive in 1965, I would have likely joined the Red Guards out of youthful idealism, and participated in the destruction of a nation. Being in banking in the early 1990's, I would have been involved in destroying Russia and setting the stage for the emerging markets crisis. Looking back over the last few years, there are some things that I could have done differently. Even now, I have political and economic views that make me indirectly responsible for the torture and mistreatment of political dissidents in China.The problem with "good intentions will save you" is that it encourages people to be stupid and passive. The best way of keeping a clean conscience in a world where "good intentions" is a defense is to be stupid and passive. If you don't ask any questions and you stay passive, then you don't find out how *you* are responsible for the mess, and how *by your inaction* you have made the world a worse place. The dangerous and disturbing thing about asking questions is that once you start asking questions, you find out how *you are responsible* either by your action or inaction for a lot of the bad things in the world. I look at my hands, and there is some blood and dirt on them that I'd like to get rid of.Part of the reason that getting a Ph.D. is irrational is that knowledge is a curse. Once you bite into the apple in the tree of knowledge then you must leave the Garden of Eden. Once you become educated and curious, you can no longer use the excuse "I meant well."If someone wants to live their life with eyes shut, thinking that they really can't change things and that a lot of the bad things that happen just aren't there fault, then that's a reasonable choice. But there are costs to that. Once you've convinced yourself that you really can't change the world, you end up begging and pleading a lot, and the curious thing is that you really *don't* feel better about yourself.The other thing is that if having a guilty conscience makes you sit back and avoid situations in which you end up making decisions that make you feel awful, then the people end up making those decisions will be sociopaths without conscience. At a grand level, you see this with Stalin and Mao, and at a lower corporate level, you see "little Stalin's" and "little Mao's" come to power. If you don't feel bad about laying people off and ruining people's lives, it's *much* easier for you to advance in the corporate and academic hierarchy, and one reason I choose to pursue money and power, is that there are some really scary and nasty people I'd like to keep out of power.QuoteYou did the best that you could do, so there shouldn't be any guilty conscience.Because I *didn't* do the best that I could do, and if I claim that I did, I'd be lying to myself. One rule of thumb that I have is that if I don't feel guilty about some part of a decision that I made, then I didn't understand the full ramifications of it.QuoteWould anyone punish a student if he flunks even after trying his best.I'm an intellectual masochist, remember. I *like* it when people punish me, because I'm not smart enough. I'm never smart enough. If I pass a test with flying colors, it was too easy. Give me a harder one. One reason that I like the world of business is *trying is not good enough*, it's about succeeding. I'm usually the dumbest person in the room, because if I'm not, then I need to leave and move to another room. The Ph.D. program is all about being locked up with people, whose job is to tell you how dumb you are, so that you internalize it and keep telling yourself how dumb you are. One other rule of thumb that I have is that the smarter you are, the dumber you feel, so if you feel smart, then you need to look some more to see what you are missing.QuoteOne may feel bad or powerless that all the effort went in vain but life is not about feeling good.I can choose to feel powerless or I can choose to feel guilty. I choose to feel guilty, because feeling powerless is a worse feeling for me. Also, one thing that I believe is that as long as you've learned something, or as long as you've added something to the collective knowledge of mankind, it's not a total loss. If you spend a lot of effort, and it blows up, well at least you've learned not to do that again, and if you write down what you've learned (like revolutionary centrally planned economies tend to put psychopaths in power) so that people can avoid making the same mistake, then you end up with some progress.QuoteEven pain sometimes add depth to life and this is the attitude we need to have to face the crisis.So if avoiding guilt leads to pain anyway, what's the point in trying to avoid guilt? Part of the reason I ended up in a position where I can either help save or destroy the world, is *that's what I wanted*. That's why I can't use the defense of *I didn't know what I was doing could destroy the world*.
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