May 16th, 2002, 7:18 am
Hi,It sounds like your situation is pretty desparate. You probably know this already, but perhaps you should consider taking another job. Mathematical finance is extremely competitive. I have a PhD from the 3rd ranked school in the US for my major, my research center is the best in the world for applied electromagnetics, and I'M having trouble finding a job as a JUNIOR quant. The mathematics of stochastic calculus comes second nature to me and I'm an expert in computational physics. Unless your qualifications are better than mine, you will have an even harder time getting a job. Plus, it's been said here before, "It's much easier to find a job if you already have a job." ANY job. Even having a job at McDonald's would pay your rent. Hell, at one point I was so desparate for cash I did some substitute teaching. I was used to teaching university courses and suddenly I am standing in front of a room full of 6 year olds The point is, you gotta do what you gotta do. Even if that means taking a job that doesn't excite you much. Never give up your dream, but you don't want to go down in a ball of flames holding out for a dream job when you can find some balance in your life by taking an intermediate job that will pay the bills while continuing the search. In fact, something like substitute teaching would be great. All you need is an undergraduate degree and the pay is decent. They are always in demand. Plus, you make your own schedule so its easy to take off for interviews.Keyword: BalanceIt's not my intention to be mean, but the truth hurts sometimes. If you keep walking the path your are walking, the chances ARE good you will become homeless and totally screwed. Maybe you NEED to get your ass kicked like that. There was a point in my life when I was completely unrealistic and I did end up homeless for a while. That kicks your ass believe me. Pain is a good teacher. Fortunately, I was able to stand up again and now I'm kicking ass and taking names. You can too, but you might need a real life changing experience to straighten you out. It sounds like you are dedicated and hard working, but hard working doesn't cut it if you are misplacing your efforts.I suggest you take stock of all your options (no math lingo intended ). See what is realistic and what is unrealistic and develop a plan B, plan C, and plan D for yourself. Determine a point at which you should pull the rip cord and bail out. Going through life without a safety is not a wise move.Eric